I have been so busy. Well, not on Sunday, Sunday I watched the new Resident Evil movie and chilled with Dave. But other than that, whew. I was glad nearly no one came into the store today, ’cause I had a nap. There were 8 whole people to come in between ten and one. It was a nice, mostly uninterrupted, nap. I dunno why I was so tired today either, it was weird. And hungry too. I ate today the same stuff I ate yesterday and I got hungry like three hours before I got hungry yesterday. It was weird. There is not much to write about, work, work, work and playin’ La Pucelle: Tactics. And that is pretty much it right now.
Oh. I gave substitute teaching some more thought, and am going to try it out I think. Wednesdays I’m gonna sub, and I don’t wanna deal with high school kids, ’cause they are stuck up and don’t listen, and I don’t wanna deal with jr. high kids yet, so I think I’m gonna start out at elementary levels.
Ok, I think that is really it now, lol. Later.
Seriously.
I had a dental appointment today, in Denton, and my insurance company is trying to tell me that they can’t insure me. No reason, really, except the obvious lie that that particular branch of Monarch Dental doesn’t exist. It exists, they’ve worked with this insurance company before, even. But for me, that is too bad, I have to make Memorial-Hermann Health Care Systems money by going to doctors that work for them. Therefore, I can only get insured in Houston, so living in Denton, which is six hours away from houston, is too damn bad for me. Why the hell do I even have this shitty insurance again? Seriously. This is ridiculous! I can’t get fucking insured anywhere except the Houston area!! And the doctors have to approved, except that the doctors that are approved all work in some way for Memorial Hermann!! This shit should be fucking illegal, god damnit!!!
I’m feelin lots better today, I got cheered up yesterday actually but I was too busy to blogs about it. Today is my day off! I slept super late and now am watching the cartoons and smokin the hookah with Dave. it is awesome.
Dave has been trying to cheer me up, and for a little bit afterwards I feel better. But then I get sad again. I don’t even know why I am sad. If there was a reason for it then maybe I could stop feeling this way, but there doesn’t seem to be one. And I feel worse when dave is trying so hard to cheer me up.
The idea of food is still making me ill, I think I’m gonna fast today.
I am depressed. I don’t like it, I’m starving but the idea of eating anything turns my stomach and makes me kinda ill. The idea of actually doing something constructive, like putting up the dishes or cleaning up the living room, just makes me want to curl up and not move. I hate this, I used to be able to cope with depression, because I was always depressed. But now that I’m not always depressed I dunno what to do. I have to work again today, working usually makes me feel better.
I wish dave would wake up, its almost one.
I have been very busy lately, Working every day and all. It is kind of fulfilling, having something to do everyday. Work is also interesting, we get the strangest people in at Museum Earth, and hosting at Applebee’s is a totally new experience. I really can’t stand one or two people demanding a large booth though, it really screws up the seating. Especially one person! A booth can hold 4 or 5 people, and this is the 3rd busiest Applebee’s in the state so it is important to have those tables open! And always with the refusal of the smoking section. Arg. The whole restaurant will be packed, and all of smoking will be empty. It makes no sense at all to me.
Anyways, with me being busy and all I haven’t had time to blog as much as I want to. But yesterday was a great day, Dave drew me up a bath and I got to soak as soon as I got home. It was awesome.
Tomorrow I work at Museum Earth, but it is the closing shift so I get to sleep in. Hopefully I’ll have time to blog!
I rearranged some stuff and emptied the litter box not filled with pee and feel slightly better now.
I wouldn’t have been angry at Dave if I hadn’t have sent him a text message reminding him about the litter boxes and asking him to let me know if we needed more litter so I could buy some. But he didn’t respond, which usually means he got it and did the stuff.
ARG his phone is ringing right now!! Why does he not have it with him? Seriously, he puts it in his pocket and it has a vibrate, silent and off mode. I do not under stand him.
Anyways, I wanted to buy any litter we needed before I got home, so I wouldn’t have to make any more trips today. But we need more litter to clean the other litter box out with. I’m obviously going to have to get it, since Dave is in his labs without his phone. I’m not going yet though.
I’ve been standing up all day and workin’. It is true that the job in the mall is really nice and comparatively easy compared to my other jobs. However I still get tired and footsore once I come home, I want to rest a little bit and not have a hill of laundry to do, filthy carpet to scrub clean, and grimy, sticky counter tops to deal with all by myself.
I ordered some sweet and sour pork, even though I shouldn’t have. Food makes me feel better so I don’t care. Nyah.
I woke up at 8:45am today and had work until 3:00pm and then had to stop by Applebee’s to tell them my set schedule at my other job, and when I come home the litter boxes are still filthy. God damnit, I have been asking Dave all fucking week to clean them, or throw them out or something! Yeah, he has class now and everything, and is at lab now too, but he hasn’t gotten into any of his difficult homework yet! He had no papers to grade and nothing to do this morning, his labs didn’t start until three!
He did feed the cats and take out the trash, which I also asked him to do, but he forgot all the small trash cans. I do not understand at all. Dave doesn’t like cleaning litter boxes so he refuses to do it, Dave doesn’t want to do anything I ask of him. I once asked him three days in a row to vacuum and he “sort of” vacuumed on the third day. The carpet is still gross and filthy and I just don’t have any energy to do any thing about it. I’m the only person that ever tries to keep things clean. The kitchen and bathroom have bugs crawling everywhere, and Dave still hasn’t cleaned the one part of the counter top I asked him to over two weeks ago.
His past excuses were he was “busy” but whenever I come home he isn’t busy! He is reading EA or playing games or asleep!! He isn’t going to be able to help me at all when he starts having to do research, and now, while he can help me out, he deliberately doesn’t do what I ask of him, or “forgets” I asked. And he always gets so irritated and complains about it until I do it anyways. It really pisses me off!!
If he was here I wouldn’t have to complain about it I could tell him, but the litter liner fell over the litter and there is cat piss all over it and I am not cleaning it up god damnit!! If Dave had done what I asked him for the past fucking week cat piss wouldn’t be everywhere!
ANGRY
